110/365

This week in a nutshell:

Last Sat: Tuition / Thom CC to study / dinner @ Tamako / happy birthday aunty :-)
Last Sunday: Tuition / Cherisse's birthday dinner over at her place at Tampines with HOTH
Monday: S C H O O L
Tuesday: SL day AKA no school day / happy legal cherisse xoxo
Wednesday: Down with flu fever headache gave sch a miss
Thursday: S C H O O L / happy legal huimin!!! :-)) / ultra sound + blood test results
Friday: S C H O O L / Stepping down ceremony for waterpolo / back to training / played match / saved 2 males' bounce shots *fyeah*
Today: Tuition.... (miss training on Sat mornings and complaining about sunburns thereafter...)

"you'll always be beautiful in someone else's eyes"

108/365

 

9 more days - something to look forward to ;-)

107/365

Missing you girls xxxx

106/365

Just wna drop and leave everything behind and fly to Bangkok this instance. Have always asked myself how life would have been different if i was raised and educated there till today.

But I guess, I should be lucky and grateful to be where I am today.

Ymhrhmtnrmasytwycecw

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Unable to comprehend everything that's in my head recently. It's been almost a week of sleepless nights just worrying about my health report (what if it is negative i'm gna be on meds for life and putting on weight as a side effect), crying for one whole day, some people are just so insensitive, what's wrong with the world, why am I so stupid, why am I such a burden to my parents, why is everything so disappointing, why isn't my best good enough, why can't I seem to do anything that's right?

It has led to a point that the only sense of achievement I feel is attaining my goal for 2.4km - believe it stupid or not it meant the world to me to be able to hit 11 mins.

Do you even-? It's alright, I figured.

I shouldn't expect and think too much. Life is and will never be a bed of roses.

To all those who feel as though all hopes are lost;

Things don’t go wrong and break your heart so you can become bitter and give up. They happen to break you down and build you up so you can be all that you were intended to be.

102/365

So this week has been pretty eventful (arranged chronologically):

1) monday was match against ri and proud to say despite our loss, it was a pretty narrow 3-1 and everyone played and defended well :-) and bumping into Ivan at ACSI! Headed to Star Vista after that with the girls where Ms Lim treat us to a super huge bowl of Sogurt worth $17!

2) wednesday was what we've been living for - the bronze playoffs against tj for us girls and ri for the guys. They did rlly well and I'm so proud of all of them to have come this far and lost only at the extra time to raffles. Indeed it has been a huge step since last year, history makers once more! Throughout their whole match all i could do was to watch helplessly from the warm up pool and feel increasingly faint as the clock edges nearer to 00:00 each quarter. And the loss i must admit affected me so greatly that i played like shit for the first quarter against tj. But heads up guys, SA's gna come back stronger next year!! :-) celebration dinner afterwards at concorde hotel @ spice cafe with the team. Gave jiaolian the scrapbook which we made for him!!! :-)

3) thursday - release of pw results / prize presentation. No matter how hard i try to console myself that a difference of 1.25RP is nothing much of a diff, i can't help but to feel really upset over how much hard work i'v put in for pw including my group's blood, sweat, tears and diarrhoea. But shit happens, life is unfair at times. :-( kinda glad i wasn't in sch at that time anyway, the silence in class would have been to overwhelming for me to maintain my composure and step out of the geog room smiling.

And as for my polo girls, i'm so proud of all of you to have come this far together :-') juniors, please do us proud next year and get into finals!!!!!

4) finally got myself to visit the docs with the mother today for my 3 weeks long (erratic) eye infection and to find out what the anonymous lump on my throat is all about. Apparently it's called "Thyroid Nodule" in which i have to get it removed?.... Got my blood drawn for testing and hoping for the best that it's fluid inside so i could get the easy way out of just drawing the water out from a needle through my neck or traditionally, surgery for solid.

that's the 3cm x 2cm freaking thyroid cyst which looks like a deformed adam's apple :(((((

pretty bumped about my results / health / body i should just be a robot :-(

on the bright side, both my dresses are hereeeee xoxoxoxoxo