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Can't help but to feel inferior, bloated and round

Every.

Single.

Day.

VPLs tightening of the skirt pe shorts being too tight clinging onto our thighs peering over to see our weight each time on the weighing scales thinking about the amount of exercise that will burn off what i just ate looking up to skinnier friends hearing them speak of their weight loss regime while i binge eat the same time they speak of.... And some girls are really blessed with their assets (somewhere i always wish the fats i gain would go to but it never happens)

I absolutely adore love worship food but growing up in this 21st century makes not being able to fall into society's image of perfection daunting every single time.

Blah 3 msa papers tmr i should stop overthinking (and while typing this i am fighting the urge to open the white chocolate kinder bueno that's tucked under my drawer in the box of goodies)

And here's to welcoming a new series of mozzie bites attained from school today with it being the 16th to be added into my collection yay to new scars... (gosh i am so whiny but that's what girls do best heh) 

Exeunt

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"Many of us just want to be loved.

The problem is, we forget to love ourselves. We cannot expect someone to commit to us if we are not devoted to ourselves. We cannot hope for someone to support us if we don’t have faith in ourselves. We cannot wish for security and laughter and jealous fights if we do not believe that we deserve it. We cannot be honest with our partner if we lie to ourselves. Our partner cannot listen to us if we muffle our own inner voices. Our partner cannot take care of us if we don’t know how to heal our own wounds. Our partner cannot make us feel confident if we are deeply insecure. Our partner will not believe in us if we do not believe in us.

We cannot expect someone else to love us if we do not love ourselves.

We need to be committed to who we are. We need to support all our hopes and dreams. We need to believe we are funny if we want to make someone truly laugh. We have to learn how to take care of ourselves before we let someone else try. We need to know what we want out of an argument before we start bickering. We need to listen to ourselves. We need to take a deep breath and listen. We have to have confidence.

Only we can pull ourselves out of the black hole of insecurity. We have to know that the only person who we can depend on is us. We have to like our personality. We have to recognize our weaknesses. We have to love ourselves through our mistakes, self-described flaws, and any regrets we may have. We have to believe in who we are, always and forever. We have to.

And only when we have learned to love ourselves, someone else will too."