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"Being tender and open is beautiful. As a woman, I feel continually shhh’ed. Too sensitive. Too mushy. Too wishy washy. Blah blah. Don’t let someone steal your tenderness. Don’t allow the coldness and fear of others to tarnish your perfectly vulnerable beating heart. Nothing is more powerful than allowing yourself to truly be affected by things. Whether it’s a song, a stranger, a mountain, a rain drop, a tea kettle, an article, a sentence, a footstep, feel it all – look around you. All of this is for you. Take it and have gratitude. Give it and feel love." — Zooey Deschanel

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“It’s not the kind of sadness to where you cry all the time, but more of like the sadness that overwhelms your entire body, leaving you heart aching and your stomach empty. Making you feel weak and tired. And yet, you can’t even sleep because the sadness is in your dreams too. It’s almost a sadness you can’t escape.”

227/365

It comes to a point where life grapples you with puzzlement, unhappiness and uncertainty which ultimately seemed that the only way out of this bubble is to sacrifice yourself for the greater good of others.

Never knew that secondary school dramas would exist in JCs (albeit minor ones) 

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Anyhoos enough of my life's dwellings

-oh wait one more-

It doesn't make sense to follow me on instagram first and then block me some time after. What (in the name of the world) is your purpose in this. Enlighten me please seriously.....

224/365

“You have got to understand that one day I will be so empty that not even an explanation for why will be able to fill me.”

 —  K.P.K

222/365

I'm 

Errrday post pe fun

Safe trip to NZ Mr Soh AKA daddy of DSAs you'll be missed xxxx 

"I CANT JUMP IM TOO HEAVY" says me (cold harsh reality hits me - give up jumping alex....)

While threading with Leanne, Darren Jeevan Hose Charles hijacked my phone's camera function.

National Day treat by Ajan (teacher) Toh to all the ponsters thanks for contributing for the storyboard... Your absence is greatly appreciated :-) haha kidding!! 

Class attendance 13/23

GRUB for dinner om nom nom try their cheeseburger its amaze-burlssss! And their service process and all super high tech heh (Y) Davidson had the pulled beef burger but his board ended up dirty because the beef is super soft and not hardened tgt one but it's meant to be this way!! 

Had waffles after with gelato but too lazy to edit the picture sooooo... Try it for yourself ;-) 

GRUB

510, Ang Mo Kio Ave 1 (Bishan Park 1)
Singapore 569983

Take 410W from Bishan Interchange then alight the bus stop AFTER opposite Ai Tong School

Sister back from Houston and Russia with loots from VS / Bath and Body Works / A&F / Hollister / Ralph Lauren sad truth once more (ouch) i couldn't fit the sizes she wears so i only got one top from Holli (hope the day i'll be able to squeeze into it comes sooooon) Rlly diggin' the VS Bombshell & Bath & Body Work's Sea Island Cotton~~~:-)

Heh playing with apps - making the impossible, possibl- i mean how often do you get to survive a cyclone/hurricane...? Neither do I have the ability to afford 1.3k to get my ass to Europe :-( Gna use this as a fuel to work and study hard!!!

Speaking of whichhhh super excited for post A level plans with ma friends and all :-))))) Can't wait for Bangkok, Phuket and Pattaya MISS THE LAND OF SMILES 

Throw back to the end of O's at Bangkok with P :-( Hope UK is treating you well xxxxx

Few weeks to prelims and less than a 100 days to A's. We'll pull through. 

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THANK YOU FATHER LORD AND THE SUPPORT/ENCOURAGEMENT/PRAYERS OF EVERYONE

I don't need brillant bt2 results to make me happy - this is enough.

*drumrolllll*

I'M OFFICIALLY IN REMISSION/FREE OF THYCA :-')

"Dear thyroid cancer,

It’s easy to focus on the negatives that you brought along with you. The negatives are always right in my face, staring me down. The fatigue, the insomnia, depending on a pill to survive. The swollen lymph node in my neck. I hate you and I hate all the heartache you’ve caused. I hate all the changes you’ve made to my body. I hate you for making me second-guess myself.

You know what, thyroid cancer, I hate you, but I do not hate the person you’ve made me. Oh, I did at first. At first, the change you put me through was unbearable. I balked at it, but once I got a handle on the fear you tried to destroy me with, I learned to embrace the change. You changed so very much about me. You’ve taught me so very much about myself and about life. I bet you didn’t know that could happen, did you? You and your evil tried to take over my life, but in the middle of the ugliness, I found a pocket of beauty. Can I always see the beauty? No. Sometimes your presence is so sharp in my mind that you are all I can think about. But while you were focused on stealing my life and destroying my body, you unknowingly became a teacher. The lessons I’ve learned from you have led to beautiful changes in me. I want you to know what I’ve learned while living with you so you will remember that you don’t hold me in bondage:

The easy question to ask is, “Why is this happening to me?” The better question to ask is, “What can I do to use this for good?”

Life isn’t always about me. People are more important than things. People are more important than cancer.

Love is bigger than fear; perfect love destroys fear.

I cannot be full of fear and full of peace at the same time. Living in peace is a choice. It’s not an easy choice, but it’s a choice.

You are the worst thing that ever happened to me because of what you’ve put me through. You are the best thing that ever happened to me because of what you’ve taught me.

I hate you, my beautiful mess, but I love the person you’ve made me.

xoxo,

Joanna"

Going to spend the rest of my life eating healthy and keeping fit to reduce the chance of recurrence either in my bones or my throat. Scar's pretty alright except that it had became a heloid scar (popping out with a lil bit of meat) where if it doesn't fade in 6 months time, I'll be given a strongly supported choice to go for plastic surgery to laser off my scar with the help of botox and steroids (no idea how it works).

Shall turn in now the weather's so chilly and too good for not sleeping :-)

I do hope that for those out there who are also fighting with thyroid cancer will continue to have faith and strength to go on and fight it positively - and be cleared of it asap as long as they don't give up :-)