Head VS Heart: January 2014

Wednesday 29 January 2014

028/365

Just googled the meaning of what a whore is because i started to doubt my own stand / clearly don't seem to fall under the category of one that does sexual acts for money / or a prostitute for the lack of a better word

Ha ha people these days

Try harder.

But thanks for making my night even tougher today

Sunday 26 January 2014

025/365

Week 4 of 2014 started off as a whole week of 4-subjects-for-MSA in total not forgetting monday blues

EAGLES award ceremony - am more motivated to do my best in school this year although the lack of CCA would make it a little mundane

Monday aft pe with our standard bitch eye roll

Karen came back for a visit on wednesday~~~~~~ hope your waitressing job is treating you well :-))

Kindergarten classmate sent me this on twitter HAHAHAHA spot me

Accidentally took up a shift on friday without realizing it's the day of the Kiwi Cup and thankfully managed to convince myself to give the shift away and caught it!!!! Good job SA for the 8th consecutive win :-)))))

Woke up early for an impromptu gym session at Bishan Gymbox with the A&F people!! Started my morning with great company :-)) and ofc what's gymming without running on a treadmill hehe

The machine Lucas and I have a problem with which Zhiyi seems to be able to do it because WE ARE BUTTLESS...

Left early to meet Desiree at 1pm for our oreo cheesecake baking session before work!!! :-)))

First batch that turned out burnt because we set the temp too high but the rest turned out amazing!!!

Off to work telling Desiree that "Tristan bought us krispy kremes and he wants us there early to eat!" So we cabbed and TADAHHHH surprise at the pantry turned out well!!! :-))))

Suicidal birthday girl 1995

Great great Saturday and it's sad how wekends are only 2 days short :-( and the other is soent on rushing to complete my work before the school cycle repeats again next week :-(

Hope everyone have an awesome weekend ahead :-)

Wednesday 22 January 2014

022/365

Can't help but to feel inferior, bloated and round

Every.

Single.

Day.

VPLs tightening of the skirt pe shorts being too tight clinging onto our thighs peering over to see our weight each time on the weighing scales thinking about the amount of exercise that will burn off what i just ate looking up to skinnier friends hearing them speak of their weight loss regime while i binge eat the same time they speak of.... And some girls are really blessed with their assets (somewhere i always wish the fats i gain would go to but it never happens)

I absolutely adore love worship food but growing up in this 21st century makes not being able to fall into society's image of perfection daunting every single time.

Blah 3 msa papers tmr i should stop overthinking (and while typing this i am fighting the urge to open the white chocolate kinder bueno that's tucked under my drawer in the box of goodies)

And here's to welcoming a new series of mozzie bites attained from school today with it being the 16th to be added into my collection yay to new scars... (gosh i am so whiny but that's what girls do best heh)

Exeunt

"Many of us just want to be loved.

The problem is, we forget to love ourselves. We cannot expect someone to commit to us if we are not devoted to ourselves. We cannot hope for someone to support us if we don’t have faith in ourselves. We cannot wish for security and laughter and jealous fights if we do not believe that we deserve it. We cannot be honest with our partner if we lie to ourselves. Our partner cannot listen to us if we muffle our own inner voices. Our partner cannot take care of us if we don’t know how to heal our own wounds. Our partner cannot make us feel confident if we are deeply insecure. Our partner will not believe in us if we do not believe in us.

We cannot expect someone else to love us if we do not love ourselves.

We need to be committed to who we are. We need to support all our hopes and dreams. We need to believe we are funny if we want to make someone truly laugh. We have to learn how to take care of ourselves before we let someone else try. We need to know what we want out of an argument before we start bickering. We need to listen to ourselves. We need to take a deep breath and listen. We have to have confidence.

Only we can pull ourselves out of the black hole of insecurity. We have to know that the only person who we can depend on is us. We have to like our personality. We have to recognize our weaknesses. We have to love ourselves through our mistakes, self-described flaws, and any regrets we may have. We have to believe in who we are, always and forever. We have to.

And only when we have learned to love ourselves, someone else will too."

Sunday 19 January 2014

019/365

A Bad Day

When thoughts of all but one,

are those I am keeping.

When sore though there is none,

for whom I am weeping.

A curtain drawn before the sun,

and I wish to go on sleeping.

— Lang Leav

019/365

"I never thought my problems stemmed from the media’s impossibly perfect portrayal of women. I still don’t think it has, but I’m probably wrong. What I do know is that it is so much about the power. Everyone wants to feel beautiful. If you’re not beautiful, you’re not good enough. You aren’t paid as much at work. People you’re attracted to don’t give you as much attention. You don’t feel as worthy.

I know that “pretty” is a choice. A choice of mindset. I also know that I’ve made the choice to eat. But I still feel inadequate sometimes, I still won’t let anyone love me without the lights off, I still will yearn to hear the words “You are beautiful” but doubt their truthfulness every time."